One of the many things that the Narcissist took away from me over the years was my music collection, and even the ability to pick my own music. Early on in our marriage he insisted that I delete my iTunes library so that I wouldn’t be reminded of my past at all. From there on in we listened to music that he loved, or things we found together.

As I’ve been working on finding myself, one of the things I have enjoyed is finding music that I love and that makes me feel good… and that doesn’t remind me of times with the Narcissist. I am big on lyrics and with everything I am going through now, I love it when I find a good song that relates to how I feel and Drive by Oh Wonder does just that… and oh boy does the video capture the feelings!!

See I remember all the times you made me covered in crazy
I can’t forget about the way you played me
Like I was never gonna change your world
It ended long ago so please just let me go
It ended long ago so please just let me go

Drive by Oh Wonder

Sat back with the window down
Eighty an hour and the radio loud
The same songs with the same old rhymes
Tell me to shake it off and swing from the lights

But I can’t help but drive away from all the mess you made
You sent this hurricane now it won’t go away
And I promised I’d be there but you don’t make it easy
Darling please believe me

Cause loving you, loving you is too hard
All I do, all I do’s not enough
Loving you, loving you
I cannot be loving you, loving you
Loving you, loving you leaves me hurt
All I do, all I do is get burnt
Loving you, loving you
I cannot be loving you, loving you

Count stacks of the routine lies
Funny how easy you could see my blindside
Still the same songs with the same old beats
Sure I could stay but there’s a place I’d rather be

But I can’t help but drive away from all the mess you made
You sent this hurricane now it won’t go away
And I promised I’d be there but you don’t make it easy
Darling please believe me

Cause loving you, loving you is too hard
All I do, all I do’s not enough
Loving you, loving you
I cannot be loving you, loving you
Loving you, loving you leaves me hurt
All I do, all I do is get burnt
Loving you, loving you
I cannot be loving you, loving you

See I remember all the times you made me covered in crazy
I can’t forget about the way you played me
Like I was never gonna change your world
It ended long ago so please just let me go
It ended long ago so please just let me go

Loving you, loving you is too hard
All I do, all I do’s not enough
Loving you, loving you
I cannot be loving you, loving you
Loving you, loving you leaves me hurt
All I do, all I do is get burnt
Loving you, loving you
I cannot be loving you, loving you

Loving you, loving you
All I do, all I do
Loving you, loving you, oh
Loving you, loving you, oh
Ooh oh oh oh
Ooh oh oh oh